The plan was supposed to be — just to go outside and snip a few flowers, I had an empty jar….it needed flowers…what was I supposed to do!?
I’m supposed to be healing from surgery – which in and of itself is important, but I’m on a time line….we are taking a little trip mid September, so I need to be in tip-top shape by then….which it seems…. is taking forever. I’m missing the first three days of back to school excitement…..
Honestly, it hasn’t even been a week since I’ve gone under the knife, they slowed my breathing, slowed my heart down, filled my stomach cavity full of air and put four holes in me and removed a useless body part that was causing me grief.
And, I’m frustrated that I’m not jogging down the street, moving boxes, cutting back flowers, delivering bouquets, visiting with friends, swimming, soaking in the last sun rays of the summer before the rain starts and things start to die back in the garden, instead I’m sitting in front of the tv, with my feet up, pillows stacked around, computer, cell phone, kitty…I’m not complaining, it’s just not what I want to be doing. I feel lazy and useless.
I know healing takes time, patience is not one of my strong points, Joe is better at being patient, but I know it’s important for many different reasons – I’m working on it.
My trip out to the garden was lovely, albeit, too short, but I did snag a few flowers and then had to take pictures of them – it could go on and on – if you give a mouse a cookie….I’ll sit back down, I’ll pull up the foot rest, turn on the tv and settle in for a few more days.
For now, enjoy the beautiful bouquet I stashed in my room this afternoon. Have a great rest of your week – thank you for stopping by!